Watching the water fall from the sky

Tears fall so freely I wonder why.

Why is it so hard to do

That which needs to be done.

I look in the mirror

I do not recognize what I see.

The dark circles and stringy hair

Cannot be that which is me.

The stress of life has overwhelmed

The joy has all but disappeared.

Where did the sunshine go to?

Why are only the shadows left?

My family looks at me and wonders

Where has my wife and mother gone.

I think to myself the same

Myself has become invisible.

Is there a way out?

A way to stop the pain

That doesn’t involve leaving

Leaving those that love me so.

I want to laugh and run and play

I’m not sure how to say

It doesn’t always work the way

We want it too.

I want to sing and dance

To give my family and me a chance.

A chance to be truly happy

A chance to love me and for me

To love them.

Like birds on the wind

I long to be free.

I long to love freely

I long to play freely.

I watch as the water falling

Now has stopped.

The rain or the tears both

Slow to a trickle.

The water has washed away

The pains of old

And allowed the renewal

Of life to begin.

The seeds of love

Planted long ago.

They have been covered

And now are washed clean.

The weeds are gone

The garden in cleaned.

The flower in me is struggling

To grow free from the confines.

The question remains

Is there enough sunshine

To move out the clouds

Of sadness that overwhelmed.

This poem is about how a “woman”or “mom”can lose touch with her inner soul. She becomes invisible to herself. She becomes desperate to end her sadness of forgetting her true identity and live life freely again.